i cant sleep so might as well do something to kill time.
i keep on telling myself to study,but i cant.seriously.
i dont know how im gona score my prelims and n level.
i hate wednesdays,my bag would be heavy,and talking about those 2 period lessons.thinking of it makes me yawn.plus,there would be a 2 hour maths mock test tomorrow.those numerical numbers are haunting me.im beginning to really hate maths.
i cant wait for all this to be over.

Chatted with daddy just now.every night he would tell me how much he missed us,how much he missed mums' homecook meals,and how much he hatted to be abroad and far away from us.
somedays,i admit that im sometimes reluctant to go online.but then,thinking about how lonely he can get in that big empty house all alone,makes me feel guilty.adding to that,he has gastric.it means that his food must be controlled and monitored.meals must be eaten on time and there must not be any consumption of spicy food.jakarta,how many shops are selling non- spicy and healthy food?recently he went for a checkup and told us he had high cholestrol.its either the food or because his ageing.i cant bare to see him like this.
i just have to score my n level.atleast,make him happy and make him feel that those lonely hours are worthwhile.
im thankful to have someone like him.
i miss you dad.


ive already taken flu tablets so that i can sleep.i shouldnt make this a habit.my eyes are abit heavy now,it has not taken full effect yet.
lets count sheeps and maybe then medication would have taken full effect.

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