its almost going to 1o days.im done with shopping.
a few days ago,i was down with a really bad flu.but im fine now.
i realised that theres something wrong with me.ive been having continuous headache for the past week.i can say that its caused by the environment here.people smoking here and there.even in shopping malls.f!the mall is already packed with people which make it difficult for me to breath.furthermore,most of the people are smoking!wtf.im cursing all the way.closing my nose with my shirt and that makes me frustrated.i was suffocating.why cant it be like singapore.fresh clean air.they should imply rules and regulations.thanks to these people,im now a 2nd hand smoker.i dont wanna damage my brain because of this.F!

jakarta is nice despite the heat and the irritating stares from people.oh ya.&&excluding the irratating smelly nicotine smoke...The stuffs sold are cheap and are in good quality. the environment and the surrounding is also different from singapore.its not everyday that you get to see old shacks,beggars(with choped limbs),alot of effing big,big banglos and excessive rubbish on the roadside rite?.ahha.godd.and talking about air pollution from vehicles here..geesh.

initially,i had the idea of smuggling a few packets of bubblegum and pirated cds,but dad said that the custom would check and i ll get fined or something.alaaaa:(
went to shopping just now in the evening after i felt better.bought 2 new spectacles,shades,some shirts.hehhe.its superman.love love.someone made me like those comic cartoons.:D
i was blog hopping just now,when i saw baby's' picture at afiqahs blog.hahha.so cute.the caption also:):):)
they call you zinger??heheh.yeay!new name.
anyway,cant wait to go back to Singapore.miss friends and family.and miss syg.alot alot.
4 more days.i hope the luggage weight wouldnt exceed 20kg.haha.then i break the other handle also.hhehe.oops.sya strongggg:D
once in singapore,i wanna watch movieee.hehhe.boleh kan sygg??watch with me:):):)at cityhall.gerek.cant wait:D

banyak sey smiley...
hahah.im off to sleep.tireddd.my legs are gonna break into pieces.lets play jigsaw!:P

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friday.i survived for one week.
to think about it,its kind of fast.
i just hope the next one week will fly fast.cos i miss friends and family.
people have been asking me to upload pictures of me at blogger.but i cant.as usual,internet sucks.
tomorrow i ll be doing the normal housework,cook,then at 3,dad will come home and i ll go shopping with him.
for the last one week,ive been sleeping my day off cos i want the hours to pass by quickly.housework,tv and the kitchen kept me entertained.haha.okey not entertained.
something to do.or not i ll think about the loneliness.okey,lets not be sentimental.
after one week also,ive finally got used to being alone,not receiving messages and used to being asked to do millions of housework.
its okey..im doing all these for dad.i now know how it feels like.

tomorrow,hmm..i shall wake up early and do something about my hair.goddd.its damaged beyond repair.i think its because i changed shampoo.oh ya,and swimming.damn chlorine.50,000 rupiah for a good massage.okeyla tu.around $10..i think its worth it.and i ll be going around the condo to take pictures.yeay!
i dont know what got over me.or what hapened.but as soon as i reah indon,my indonesian language karat sia...the words cant even come out from my mouth.hahha.funny.
ohh..and livejournal.hehhe.belum update pun.tu la...but i think i ll update once in singapore.yea.i hope.hahah.

to aini dearest:happy 16th birthday sygg:)wish you all the best in life okey.
thank you for being there for me.and supporting me all the way.love you babe:)

i miss you.
so much.
i realised alot of things when im here,about us.
ive been thinking.
tc of yourself okey.
dont forget to eat tau tau.
hahha.hantu ayam!
hehhehe.
love you pirate:)
oh ya,overjoyed that i can finally read a reply from you.:):)
have fun with zufar!

so far my stay at jakarta is okey?
hmm..the shopping part is tiring.people everywhere.i can suffocate.
my routine:wake up at 430 cook breakfast,wait till 6.dad goes to work.and i ll be hitting the covers.by 9+,i ll cook lunch and iron the clothes after that while waiting for dad to come home so that we an eat together.he ll go back to work by 1 and i ll be sweeping ,mopping,washing,ironing....blah blah.those house chores.
dad is my only friend here.he has been a loving parent while im here.didnt scold me one bit.hehhe.daddys girl:)
i went swimming at 7 pm just now.im surprised it didnt rain tonight.just strong gusts of wind.usually by 6pm it ll be raining like crazy.
during the weekend,i took lotsa pictures.im so stupid enough to delete those pictures accidently because i was in a hurry.stupid la.those nice pictures.oh what the heck.i ll just take more next week.
aini called me for almost 1 hour just now.crazy girl.doesnt care about her prepaid card.
shes the best.i love her.

i miss you honey,
9 more days till i can hug you.
i love you.
i hope youre doing fine.
muahh!
can you pls update?hehhe.thank you syg.(:

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i didnt sleep well last night.
i kept thinking about you.
i browsed through our pictures.
and teared at your messages.

woke up @ 430 am,
made breakfast for dad.
cooked prata with daging and chilli ikan bilis.
i sat down with dad,looked at the cereal bowl infront of me,i talked and smiled as much as i can.
tried making the conversation as interesting as possible.
i hope its enough to cover up that frown.
My shoulders were in pain and my backbone hurts everytime i bend down.
dad went to work @ 6am &i was left alone.
stared at the house.
everythings so dead.
i couldnt stand the silence.
so i locked the doors,went back to bed and read those messages again.
finally,my eyes gave way and i slept till 9.
by then i cooked cream spagetti which took me 1 hour plus.
i wanna spend as much time possible.
distract myself.
dad came back by 12.now,atleast,there was someone with me.
he went back to work.
i cleaned the house.kak ema was right.the house needs constant cleaning.
i felt so sad thinking that he needs to clean the house,do laundry,wash the plates,cook his meals and watch tv all on his own.that sucks.
@6pm,i get ready.watched tv while waiting for dad to reach home.
i felt somewhat overjoyed that his home.a soul to lighten up my day.
went out and we had dinner outside.

i messaged to let you know im fine.
i want to know how you're doing but i knew i wouldnt get a reply.
offline msn messages and your blog entries would be the only source to know your condition.
i feel like crying.
im thinking of you all the time.no doubt.
300% positive????hheheh.
the day when i reach singapore,i promise i ll flood your inbox.
to make up for that 14 days.
i want to spend time with you.
youre all mine during december tau tau.
no soccer no nothing.jahat eh.
hmm.i miss my pirate.
tc okey baby.
i wont get tired saying that.
p.s i dont care if its wet or damaged or anything.
as long as i know a part of me is with you.
simpson still smells of you:)
which makes me miss you even more.
hais.
now,its officially 12 more days
i love you sweetheart.

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yes.im at jakarta now.
the flight to jakarta was sucky.
both people on my left and right are quiet people.and being quiet is annoying.
syg said'i think airline food is better than poppeye ayam'.
hahahha.its not like emirates.emirates is so much better.i had a plate of omellate with cheese and mushrooms with veges seasoned with pepper and salt.thats all.emirates is so so much better.
but im just glad im here safely.

reached jakarta around 8 singapore time.
some abang2s rushed to me and asked whether i needed help.
i only have one luggage.which i broke the handel.hahha.i think i can manage.
so i was like 'no,no.thanks'more than god knows how many times.
took my luggage.
went out,searched for dad but couldnt find him.waited at a corner.
again,people came up to me.ask this and that.i kept quiet.
smile smile.dunno for what.
i was scared.i didnt know this country.
i prayed so that dad would reach soon.

went back to the condo.
unpack.
now online.

thank you hunney for sending me to the airport.
i ll try to be strong.
connection over here sucks.
those messages were so sweet.
i love you baby
i miss you so much.
i wish that youre here with me.
its lonely here.....:(

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okey done packing!finally..
im left to put in prata,nuggets,some cooked foods and perfume.those liquid stuffs.
damnn..if the whole baggage is gonna weigh more than 22kg,i ll open it up and ask bf to bring home or something.dont wanna waste money.and mind you.i only brought a pathetic amount of clothing.
im ready.im done crying on someones shoulder and written all those recipes to cook for dad.
im gona miss those people who really do care for me.
especially mr hafiz,miss aini,hidayah bebe,ika..
and my kawan kawans.hehe.thank you for the wishes and for asking me when and what time my flight will be tomorrow.

its gonna be two weeks only.common la.dont cry.hehhe.ive bcome sucha sentimental person(aini said that..grrr!)
oh ya!aini,momma said to come and sleep at my house to replace me.hahah.
and i wont forget to wish you happy birthday on the webcam okey!i promise.
mampus.bangun la aku malam2.ishh.

off to sleep.

missing you already.
love you.

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since ive not start updating at livejournal,might as well update here for the time being.
im now packing for my indonesia trip on friday.damn.i feel so sad.eventho i know i need to be strong.dad needs someone there.i can do this.

im gonna miss you.alot.
i need you,to hug me through the nite.
im gonna miss your kisses.
and the warmth of your touch.
i love you.
if only i knew whether you feel the same way.

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When you walk out that door,
it left a hole in my heart.


Leave me alone figuring it all out.
till my heart gives way,
and those words come running out.
For now,let me mend it on my own.


love is about giving,
never expecting anything in return.
39 hours 10 minutes - nothing at all.

baby can i hold you tonight.
baby if i told you the right words,at the right time.
i love you.i dont know whether you still do.

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sick.bored.sleepy.bloated eye.menstrual cramps.gastric.headache.

as simple as that.

unbearable pain.

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Its been boring.plain boring.i have nothing to do.
why am i always complaining that its boring??because it is!
if boredom is a sickness,i think i ll probably be in a critical stage right now.icu or something.teet teet teet.hahah.and now im making sound effects.
im done biting nails,scratching my head,pulling those small hairs on my legs,lay around in my bed all day.im gona gain weight..
i cant jog cos mum wouldnt let me.Currently,im sick.and i hate it.i cant move around as active as i used to be,i ll be curling on my bed like an armadillo.no,its not for defence.im trying to fight myself from this horrible pain.i thought its normal tummy pain.but it wasnt.Last night,i woke up two or three time to vomit whatever is in my stomach,in the morning i couldnt sit up cos my tummy was in pain.the pain was excruciating.its like doing 500 situps and get abdominal pain the next day.only this time,its worser.god.
i wanna get up and go!i wanna be active.im tired being like some boneless human.i wanna be like those superheroes who fight crimes and saves the day or be a criminal like MOJOJO(hahha.i like that name.works my jaw).Total world domination!hhahaha.
Side effects of watching too much cartoons.
lets change that...
whats the side effect of watching too much porn???ahahhahha!
its 1.24am.ive always had dark circles around my eyes.so i cant really see whether this lack of sleep is increasing the circumference of those evilllll circles..awww.poor eyes.
poor poor eyes.so yes.i should sleep.i hope i dont have to wake up later on..

tata~

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