Labels: let me fall

Labels: walk away.

i miss bf.i miss seeing him play with my phn game.his been trying to beat me at 'snake'.too bad i cant have that phn.that old phn.like ika say..legend sakk.hahah.
for these few days ive been collecting and writing down recipes so i can cook for daddy.i want him to be fat back.he lost his cute big belly tummy..awww daddy.i ll cook for you okey.and you ll get back that tummy aites:)
people are starting to book me.go shopping,watch tons of movies,go east coast.
hmm.thank god its nowhere next week.
i wanna watch the coffin.best!wanna have a good scream.i m gonna hear someones heart beating fast:)
i miss you.

Labels: sylvester

Schools over!!!!!yeay!weeeeee~at last.
but i kinda miss going to school.waking up early in the morning and complaining about it.
i miss my friends and my teachers and those books.what the hell am i going to do this holiday?
someone suggested me to work.i want to.but who would employ someone who aint gonna come for two weeks plus?
firstly,im going off from 14th nov to 28th nov to accompany dad at indon.
secondly,i can t work when dad is in singapore becos he doesnt allow me to.dont ask me y.i have no idea.
thirdly,aunt and small lil cousin will come to singapore to take care of us when mum and dad is at hajii dont want to leave them alone here.they dont even know their way around the neighbourhood.what if something were to happen..kak ema wont be around to stick by because she has attachments and stuffs.
fourth,i wanna spend time with people i love before sch starts.

i ll see how.maybe work at zara or something.hmmanyway,i went out yest,with ika,the hiker and genie.heheh.i wasnt in a good mood yest..mum and stuffs.hais...but these gundus cheer me up.thank you friends:)

made our way to bugis around 130 and reached around 220.
helped genie to find jeans,t shirts and jacket for her trip to hong kong.
i didnt want to buy anything at first,but they said i should.
i didnt know whether i made the right choice.i suck at making decisions,i tell you.nvm,i ll go to bugis and grab that cap.
overall it was a blast.

Labels: gotta get a hold of myself

nick lachey - cant hate you anymore.
i wrote the lyrics somewhere in this blog.click click click.read it.the lyrics are damn sedih la.make me wanna cry.dah nangis pun.
hmm.yes,finally im done changing my blogskin.ika and iqa said they couldnt view my previous skin.
This skin take forever to do.but hey,im done!
baby asked me to try sleeping.but i cant.now im nocturnal.and i hate it cos my face is damn sensitive la.sikit2 nanti pimple.as the clock ticks,im praying and hoping hard that i can shut my eyes and sleep.its 1:13!wtf!wtf!and i have school tomorrow.last day baby!yeay!we're suppose to clean the classroom.hahha.i ll be eyeing somebody:Pweeee~
i wana cut my hair.sumpah kembang gilerr..like mambo sia..wait!no..like lion.not bear!hahha.
oh ya oh ya!!!!i cooked!pictures will be uploaded soon.;)

things i wanna get and do for the next few weeks..:
run.jog.babats begone!
wanna get dumbell?ala.weights kan senang.flabby arms.tak leh tahan sia.like those nenek2 cine waving and their arms are like swinging laaa.goshhhh.
i wanna get headphones.red ones!red is smoking hot babeee.
jeans...i ve been wearing the same jeans all the time.i think people notice..eh!its clean okey.i wash my jeans.
new makeup..been throwing all those old make ups.


okey!must sleep.
TO PIRATE:I already update..yeay!dont need to walk on the plank.heheh
i ll take two flu tablets or something.help me shut my eyes.
lala land~~~~la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

Labels: weeee......~

Labels: that white hat

its heartbreaking when someone close to you just aint liking how you re really like.
im being myself.thats how i am.
maybe its wrong to love someone too much.
maybe i just have to change my ways to cater to you.
but i cant lie.
its hard.thats just how im like.
can you accept my flaws?
would you love me for me?
would you make time for me?
i cant help to be too dependent on you.
youre my first.
why cant we just understand?
i expect too much.
its my fault.always has been.
my promises mean nothing.
eventho it shatters me,i ll hold one.
For us.


*words dont mean a thing.
im not doing enough.
nothing ever is.

love means sacrifice.are you willing to do that for me?
let me just go through more to find out how you are really like.
nothings perfect.accept me for me.i know youre learning to.

Labels: promises dont mean a thing

somehow some parts of this song like tape rosak you know.hehe.but its still nice.
im bored at home.all alone.ive been dialing numbers to find people to spend time with.just to kill time.but i dont think i should because ive been coming home late for the past two days.late as in reach home around 10 pm.hahha.late?hmm.yea.mum is not happy about that so i shall be a good girl today and stay at home and rot.
yesterday,i sat with mum and sis and they get all serious talking about my results and stuffs.thinking about n level?no no.i dont even wanna think about taking my results.pfft.
im not confident,thats right.not confident.
ive come up with a plan.PLAN A:get my results,eventho how bad,i ll still continue to sec 5 that is if it is under 10 points.
PLAN B:Go to ite.
BACKUP PLAN:hmm.hmmph.lets crack brains for that.i have none.
everytime i talk about this,bf,kak ema,friends feel like throwing shoes at me.
how come other people have more confident in me than myself?
i swear the fear is building.
i think more volcanoes are growing because ive been thinking too much about this.when i say volcanoes, i mean pimples.hahha.fina was laughing when i said volcanoes.gosh these kids uhh.what are they learning in school...

ive been laying down with hafiz junior since 2pm just now.hafiz junior..hehehe.
boredom is evil you know.they take over you.making you restless and depress somehow.betul tak?okey,i know im talking crap.mampos.boleh mati mcm gini.
cant wait to jalan raya next week with my mates.cant wait.
im sorry i didnt show that i understand.i know i suck.

i think i wanna draw or something.just do something.i thought sch was boring.this is worst.

Labels: change me

First day raya.
cute right?this kids are super adorable.have to chase the whole house and carry this small little girl to the sofa so that i can have our picture taken.she's gonna grow up preety.im wearing brown this year.

2nd day of raya.
open house.
cousins came down to my house.
mummy cooked nasi lemak with chilli sotongs,ikan bilis,fried fish and chicken.
yummyyy.
small little cousins were running all around the house screaming 'GO GO POWERANGERS!'
4th day raya.
aini came to my house for raya.daddy was eager to meet her.
yes,daddy loves my twin sister.syg her like his own.
aini!i love your hair la sygg.you look nice.no doubt.daddy says you look SMOKING!
hehehe.
10 years and still counting.i love you bacin!

if youre wondering why theres no 3rd day of raya picture,its because im busy studying geog and maths.i begged daddy that i wanna stay at home.because i havent even touch a single page.wow.lets see how the results turn out.goshh.
On the same day i went to two open houses.
mum says i look like my daddys gf.whoaa.hahha.
i seriously CANNOT stand his moustache.go shave that misai kan?haiyoo.

i think i know who taught me how to pose.dad you are handsome!

5th day of raya.
went to uncle bobs house.i was busy munching.auntie ogys' cakes and dishes are ohh so good.i kept on saying 'uhuh!sedap giler.tumbs up!'
hahha.the usual line.but seriously,i wasnt kidding.the dishes were sedap giler!
kak rien was there too.she videod each and every moment.heheh.including me eating and saying that same line.
i wore kak emas' white baju kebaya.it was abit too big,so i went to pinned it.
when i got back and took off the pin,there was big big holes.O.0
mummy came shouting to look for me.the rest was laughing while i was being lectured.hmmph.

Go to my friendster if you wanna take a look at the other pictures.

i wanna go mandi.heheh.tata~

Labels: smelly.icky mee.

Hari raya was normal this year,nothing special.so its the same routine.
yest was boring.it was tiring..all hot and sweaty,make up gone in 1 hour plus plus,go to peoples houses.need to go one whole round to salam each and everyone.like i know them like that ehh?atleast get duit raye^^ehehheh:)
beside those stuffs,i still enjoyed the day.every house that i went to has small little kids running around.cute.i wanna baby boy mama..can?



back to study.chiowww

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