Sunday, April 19, 2009
perfect
today was abit boring.went out with gf and accompany her shop.
surprisingly,we didnt laugh as much.probably it was because we were in our own world. there was so much things on my mind.and i hate it.how i wish god gave us a book so that i can just look it up if i didnt know what to do. orchard was super hot.scorching i tell you. and i was sweating the whole time. thank god i wasnt wearing black.
PTC on friday.gosh. bloody maths.or not i wouldnt even be nervous.i wonder what ms kom is gonna say. im determined to work my way up and score for my o levels. 10 points.i know its gonna be hard,damn. ive been hearing pitbull everywhere.mentang2 fast and furious nye soundtrack. i could swore i heard it more than 5 times today. and now i cant get it outta my head.haha.
im forcing myself to do something i hate doing. but i know i have to. i want to be happy. it sucks. no words could ever describe what im feeling. fuck the memories,fuck the feelings. i just wanna feel numb. sucidal. ergh. fuckkkkkkkkkkkk alllllll thissssss.
Labels: just that pure sucky feeling
Mrs. Geek ended @ 9:41 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
selfless
- So im sitting here.facing the computer.laughing,for no apparent reason.hehhe.i think im going crazy.ehhehe.see i cant stop laughing.the effects of taking two drowsy medication and at the same time forcing your eyelids to open wide.
i look like some zombie typing this post.
- now i cant walk straight.drunk.ehhehe.funny la.dah lah tadi jalan mcm nak jatuh.overdose.O.o.heheheh.
- im having gastric yet im not hungry.mcmane eh tuu?
- i want CAT!i want a maine coon cat!i shall get one for myself.heheh.kalau tak kene belasah by mum tak tau lah eh kene ape.ishh.i wanna kitty cat so can temankan me at nite while i type my posts..but mummy wont let me keep one:(sadddd
- mr dimus said that the sec 5s are playing floorball again this year.omg!excited.cant wait.grab the victory cup like last year.cant wait(:(:
- hmm,what else......oh...mid year results suck yaw.goshh.teruk.just one pathetic A.i used to have 6 As.damn sec 5.nvm.im aiming for 10 points.but i can gurantee my maths will go down the drain.but i ll make sure i pass.
- sappy love song makes me cry.who doesnt.now its numb.im done crying.dont wanna hear those songs in the mean time.
- im going shopping on sunday!finally.it feels so long since i last shopped.i'd probably have painful legs full of cramps on sunday becos i ll be going to the gym on sat.as per normal.my biceps are building up.anddd someone is willing to train meee.hahha.my own trainer.^^
- i shall sleep cos i realised that im transforming into a creepy mad laughing women.haha.mummy just knocked on my door:
mummy:heh!tido.nanti hantu kat jendela baru tau.
mad laughing women:hahhahaa.k
mummy:*close the door and make noises*
mad laughing women:righhhtttttt-.-"
mak aku,mak aku.i think she miss having small kids to entertain and scare them to sleep.
okey,zombie wanna sleep.
tata~
p.s:zombie misses kambing!hehhehe.Labels: honey
Mrs. Geek ended @ 11:29 PM
not happening
thank you for the memories.
those precious bitter sweet moments.
i wont lie.
i miss you.
i really do.
i d be happy if you found your other half.
maybe its just not meant to be.
to do those stuff we used to do.
i ll let go.
i wont forget that first smile you carved for me.
and those nicknames you called me.
and the way you held me in your arms.
im sure youre doing fine without me there with you.
i ll be happy if youre happy.
another tomorrow seems so far away.
i love you.
Labels: run along
Mrs. Geek ended @ 3:08 PM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
insomnia
us.the bond between us would never be broken.
they are the best.
i miss being in sch with lina and ika.rinduuu siakk..hais.
atleast you guys are happy at your new sch right?
you guys are really irreplaceable.love love(:<3
welllll,,,im missing someone so much lately.
i dont know why. sickening feeling.ahhah.
this is making me go ermmm,,kookoo?
haha i dont know if you feel the same.
but if you do,you should know that i still do.
if that makes any sense.
atleast those memories makes me smile awhile.
ntah la ehhh. ishh.
im not feeling myself lately.
gotta pick up the pieces and move on.
maybe i should let someone else heal it for me.
but i dont know if i could let you.
ahh.screw this.screw life.
Labels: im going crazy
Mrs. Geek ended @ 3:08 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009
i keep running and running
Bali shoot.This is what i came close to.
recently,quite a few people want me to pose for them.
i ll help out if i have the time okay?
plus,school work is stacking.
i have to step it up for dnt.im aiming high for this one.
mr irfan owes me ben and jerry's..hehe.oooo:P
more pictures(:(:
i was too lazy to even put on make up
and do facial expressions.so its just mere poses.
i wanna try bali dancing soon.with those long fingernails.
ahaa,so cool...
im off to cleaning the house.*yawns*
Labels: theres no finish line
Mrs. Geek ended @ 11:19 AM
Friday, April 3, 2009
blue skies are turning to grey
You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
you know that some of us spin again
when you do, you need a friend
don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
and I hate the thought of finally being erased
baby that's the best of me
Labels: theres no more believing
Mrs. Geek ended @ 8:39 PM
Thursday, April 2, 2009
butterfly
Overdue picturea.taken two weeks ago.
yea it was fun.
Im done with midyear..
Thank godd..im sick and tired of books already.
Stuck for five years flipping those same pages.
i ll laugh if i did well...cos i didnt even bother to study..
and talking about maths...goshhh..i officially hate that subject.
im counting months till this is over.
cant wait(:
i wanna go out of unity already.
random things i wanna do or buy:
- A canon powershot G10
- make up.throw all those old junks
- new clothes.new jackets.new shirt.
- Prom dress?haha
- Start going to the gym again.train my biceps and improve my stamina
- dance class
- photoshoots.upgrade my poses.boring boring poses.
- spend time with my bffs.miss them loads
- boxing
it feels as tho i can still feel the sensation
when its actually not here anymore.
flipping through the calender
and looking at the dates.
recalling each and every memory,rewinding back time.
it has been all about 'what ifs and maybes'
feels as tho theres
no point being here.
it will come back.im sure.
i shall snap out of this.
lets be carefreeeeee(:(:
Labels: tear my heart open
Mrs. Geek ended @ 9:36 PM
