today was abit boring.went out with gf and accompany her shop.
surprisingly,we didnt laugh as much.probably it was because we were in our own world. there was so much things on my mind.and i hate it.how i wish god gave us a book so that i can just look it up if i didnt know what to do. orchard was super hot.scorching i tell you. and i was sweating the whole time. thank god i wasnt wearing black.
PTC on friday.gosh. bloody maths.or not i wouldnt even be nervous.i wonder what ms kom is gonna say. im determined to work my way up and score for my o levels. 10 points.i know its gonna be hard,damn. ive been hearing pitbull everywhere.mentang2 fast and furious nye soundtrack. i could swore i heard it more than 5 times today. and now i cant get it outta my head.haha.
im forcing myself to do something i hate doing. but i know i have to. i want to be happy. it sucks. no words could ever describe what im feeling. fuck the memories,fuck the feelings. i just wanna feel numb. sucidal. ergh. fuckkkkkkkkkkkk alllllll thissssss.