i didnt sleep well last night.
i kept thinking about you.
i browsed through our pictures.
and teared at your messages.

woke up @ 430 am,
made breakfast for dad.
cooked prata with daging and chilli ikan bilis.
i sat down with dad,looked at the cereal bowl infront of me,i talked and smiled as much as i can.
tried making the conversation as interesting as possible.
i hope its enough to cover up that frown.
My shoulders were in pain and my backbone hurts everytime i bend down.
dad went to work @ 6am &i was left alone.
stared at the house.
everythings so dead.
i couldnt stand the silence.
so i locked the doors,went back to bed and read those messages again.
finally,my eyes gave way and i slept till 9.
by then i cooked cream spagetti which took me 1 hour plus.
i wanna spend as much time possible.
distract myself.
dad came back by 12.now,atleast,there was someone with me.
he went back to work.
i cleaned the house.kak ema was right.the house needs constant cleaning.
i felt so sad thinking that he needs to clean the house,do laundry,wash the plates,cook his meals and watch tv all on his own.that sucks.
@6pm,i get ready.watched tv while waiting for dad to reach home.
i felt somewhat overjoyed that his home.a soul to lighten up my day.
went out and we had dinner outside.

i messaged to let you know im fine.
i want to know how you're doing but i knew i wouldnt get a reply.
offline msn messages and your blog entries would be the only source to know your condition.
i feel like crying.
im thinking of you all the time.no doubt.
300% positive????hheheh.
the day when i reach singapore,i promise i ll flood your inbox.
to make up for that 14 days.
i want to spend time with you.
youre all mine during december tau tau.
no soccer no nothing.jahat eh.
hmm.i miss my pirate.
tc okey baby.
i wont get tired saying that.
p.s i dont care if its wet or damaged or anything.
as long as i know a part of me is with you.
simpson still smells of you:)
which makes me miss you even more.
hais.
now,its officially 12 more days
i love you sweetheart.

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