im worn out.emotionally and physically.
went to school today,as per normal.
i wasnt in the best mood.i didnt smile.i didnt have the mood to even laugh.
people around me tried their best to lighten up my mood,thank you.but in the end i think they got frustrated cos i didnt show the slightest interest to respond to anything they say or do.
i knew some people were getting worried.sorry.
bottomline today suck.first day of my period and it was horrible.
the pain was excruciating.it felt as tho the bottom of my tummy was being twist and punched.i can barely walk and my backbone hurt.my legs were sore.i just felt like going home just now.
it just sucked.if i had long fingernails,i would have digged it through my skin.
its not often that i get it this bad but yes,unfortunately,that was the case for me today.haish

i just wanna take of this mask.


im getting all down.menses maybe.
sister will be home from jakarta in 4 more days.
i miss her dearly.so much to share.

i knew i shouldnt have tooked the plunge.
but i did.
i learnt something about myself.
but in the end,i dont know if thats what i really want.