18 hours later.
half a tissue box.
blurry vision.
crushed.

waked up at 1250pm.i didnt sleep at all last night.
my eyes finally gave way at 1030am.
pillow cover soaked in teardrops.
i cant believe any of this.
maybe its a nightmare that i would never wake up to see the morning.
all that is left is sorrys' and thank you s.

i owe you
brownies.
a shirt or any other.
something that can symbolize what we used to be.
and so many apologies.

i miss you.
i miss that smile.
i miss the way you wiped your sweat off your forehead.
i miss those movie trips.
i miss your laugh.
i miss you calling me babybear.
i miss calling you pirate.
i miss the way you hold my hand.
i miss your hugs.
i miss laying on your chest and hear you breathe.
this list would never have an end.

all i can do is tear at those sweet memories.
my heart is always for you.
i hope yours is too?

yes,im hoping for something that seems so far away.
but im lying if i said i dont love you anymore.

Labels: missing you.